0 percent illumination and time to meditate under the dark night skies, on what is unseen, that has not surfaced to our awareness yet, that lies in the deepest layers of this ocean. To mediate with this unknown, to surrender to this unrevealed territory with a silent mind, dive in this ‘mysterious’ while holding on to nothing, this is my new moon practice. 🙏💓
Look at Mother,
an infinite and mystical ocean
of all things of beauty and bliss
growing and functioning
in complete harmony with each other,
without any noise, without any chaos,
so quietly, so magnificently
with utmost grace
with utmost divinity,
each of her branches
each of her wild flowers
birthing in her
prospering in her
and eventually merging in her-
one perfected meditation
one sacred flow
the purest union,
she is Mother
she is naturally breathing in me
I am naturally her.
protectors of the forest invite me
from the gates
built of billion year old rocks
with layers of time
we cannot imagine or write of
but with skins I have touched before,
and the shell sounds echo across
this land of mystical pines
always my name
Photo by Vaishali Paliwal
a shadow enters the glass house walking past that moment of letting go. it walks through known old corridors of supposed reality, corridors that keep narrowing down, but eventually open to a blue sky showing itself in full glory inspite of those high walls surrounding it. hands touch blades of grass that are not real reminding of old traumas and lost words. but a nearby fern continues to breathe,veins of it sharp and shining in bright green seas.
life breathes easy, it flows through the branches of mother flawlessly. it is tender and reachable yet wild and unpredictable. it is always leading the shadow, always holding its hands through all constructions whether true or not, through all conflicts whether real or not, shadow that is me now knocking on my lover’s door.
i see from far one tree blooming with a flower on her every leaf. feather like petals of the red blooms flying in summer air falling on the ground very gently, so quietly i feel time has vanished. they have sunlight entering them in corners settled between this world and the other, that reaches my eyes like divine light. and in this surreal moment i learn to surrender. i merge. i am part of her magic now. i stand under the tree ecstatic having found my memory back. i remember these flowers now. they have always made a path to my holy gardens, leading me to my beloved, holding my hands through all waves, always reminding me of the pilgrimage i was born here to take.
photo ©Vaishali paliwal
always of the stars i came from
always of the moon who never stopped dreaming of me
now i sing songs of our divine separation
our cosmic play, our next reunion
City always challenges me. For many years now I have struggled with city life of living out of apartments, waking up to views of concrete jungle, fighting with traffic. Lack of connection with nature frustrates me endlessly. Of course I go to parks and hikes on weekends but not being able to be in nature as much as I would like to, does upset me. Especially having returned from Himalayan life in farms these last few months, being in Los Angeles this time is making it certainly more difficult.
As I continue to work on this challenge, I make it to a point to make it to nearby parks in the mornings. It gets my day going with needed physical exercise and moments to enjoy the green grass, the sunrise, the lovely blooms. Today’s visit was a special one thanks to these group of fortnight lilies that stole my heart. ❤️
As I was about to leave the park, I saw this flock of lovelies and decided to go closer. As I stood there, I saw half of the group had sun shining on them and the other half was under shade. One particular one was dancing gently in the slow wind. I looked at her for a while and thought to myself for the immense beauty and bliss she was giving to me this morning, what could I ever offer her. But then it occurred to me I am giving her my heart and all the love and energy to be full and blooming until she wants.
Standing there I felt the lily and me and a nearby tree, even nearby cars and traffic lights, we were all breathing in harmony. That moment was so serene making me forget for a bit I was standing in one of the busiest parks of one of the busiest cities of the world. My goal is to find more such moments and to eradicate the biases I carry about city life and make myself non dependent on external situations of a city, and find my inner peace. Work in progress 🙂